Former UFC welterweight champion Johny Hendricks is a on a two-fight losing streak, to Stephen Thompson and Kelvin Gastelum, and they were definitive. In his latest fight he missed weight again, so lost, and had to pay 20% of his show money. And he used to champ.

He spoke backstage after the latest loss with Megan Olivi, about considering whether or not he still wants to fight.

I think I’ve got to take a step back and refocus, said Hendricks, as transcribed by Matt Erickson for MMAjunkie. It might be a month, two months, three months – hell, I don’t know – [to] decide if I want to fight. I love fighting. To get in that Octagon makes me so happy, but to perform like that …

I’m an idiot in that fight, is what it really boils down to. I’m an idiot in that fight … and I go out there and look like s***. Do I still want to fight? Because that fight right there shows me that I don’t – but I do. What do I have to do to get that fire back? I don’t know. It’s disappointing when I know I could’ve won, I should’ve won, and I go out there and look like a pathetic newborn. … We’ll see what’s next.

He was a better fighter; I didn’t fight. No lie: Was that the guy who won the belt? Was that the guy who would even be considered the guy who won the belt? No. Right now, I’ve got to take a step back. I’ve got to take a step back – talk to family, talk to the wife, and see what’s next. That was so pathetic. No lie – I’m my worst critic. I’d give that a D. Hell, I was out there – I saw every punch I could land. I didn’t throw. I didn’t kick. That’s probably the worst I’ve seen myself fight in a long time. Nothing against Kelvin Gastelum – Kelvin Gastelum did a great job. … It’s just that I didn’t fight. That was so pathetic.

I want the belt. I want the belt. I do. But I’m not fighting like it, so there’s no reason I should be in this division right now. But I’m not going to be a gatekeeper, I promise you that. And that’s what I’m being right now. Pardon my French, but f*** that. Not gonna happen.